Since Sunday my practice has been booked by nice and experienced (!) clients interested in the holistic side of Tantra. They eventually amazed me further with their own knowledge and background of various spiritual, wellbeing, or erotic practices.
Sounds nice, doesn’t it??
What is the goal of Tantra?
Most of the feedback I get from Tantra consists of the realization that the Tantric pleasure stays with the person for hours, even days. the released energy lingers in the air as something that had been dispelled, yet acknowledged, forgiven and received gratitude for - this act energizes rather than depletes you of your life force!
Tantra masseuse doesn’t have to comprises her/himself in order to play part in someone’s pleasure.
That’s not to say that I, as the facilitator, don’t have the capacity to ever burn out.
Because I do. For any energy worker it is so important to care about own wellbeing and balance. After a full-on period, turning into flaming ashes happens with the snap of a finger.
It had happened in the past, and it has NEARLY happened fairly recently… Somewhere around the quiet period I stumbled, my clientele had changed and I felt overwhelmed by hostile energies so alien to mine. I am lifting myself up from the ground, dusting off, and picking up the pieces of me scattered around. It was a lovely fall, taught me a lot. I am actually pleased how fast and easy the comeback was! It has never taken such a short while before.
What did help me? Faith in good clients, abundance and positive energies coming around again. In fact, it was the faith that miracles were waiting around the corner. Not much else. Also, not passing my time by drinking more than once a week (preferably less than half a bottle of red).
Where is the fine line between work and a personal life? Are we allowed to bond, create close friendships or emotionally intimate (non-sexual) relationships with our clients? Is there supposed to be a fine line?
There must be some. Even though I am not tempted to sleep with my clients, we still manage to establish the above mentioned intimate relationships. And I dare to say that they are far more powerful than most sexual relationships I’ve had which were superficially based solely on intercourse. Spiritual connections are fullfilling and enlivening. Casual sex without love is as though we have no idea who the other person in bed really is and neither we care!
Sometimes I need to say goodbye to some clients not because they were passing through the town and now must leave, but because they don’t understand that there are borders and fine lines which can’t be crossed - they are not welcomed to be crossed.
My services are limited.
I won’t tolerate people willing to blur the lines between work, friendship and the possibility of a romance. I am not build for that.
If I'm suffocating, please don’t bring me more flowers, don’t get me presents, don’t call me to see how I’m doing, don’t blame me for not replying asap… else my coffee table turns into my memorial!